This is actually my story, there was a point in my life that all I wanted was people to always want me and when I mean people I mean ‘guys’, that period I hated Snow white, because each time I looked into the mirror and say ‘mirror mirror on the wall who’s the fairest of them all’ it gives me some snow white lame stories…
And then the tides turned, the mirror suddenly started screaming my name ‘TOMI’ , sometimes I even had to tell that mirror to shut up, ‘Snow white might kill herself you know’…lol… it got to the stage I had what I wanted “every guy wanted Tomi” it felt good at some point and then suddenly I realized I wasn’t even enough for them because they keep leaving somehow and they were never enough for me because I keep leaving. Why?
You see ‘Tomi’ is a Yoruba statement in Nigeria that means ‘Enough for Me’ so let’s rephrase the title of this piece as
EVERYBODY WANTS ENOUGH FOR ME (HIS/HERSELF). So you see it wasn’t really all about me *raised eyebrow*… I just seem to sniff out our desires; we always seem to want enough of everything, like do we ladies ever get satisfied with them reigning bags, clothes and all of that stuff… I wonder… or do guys ever get satisfied of staring at beautiful ladies… It’s not our fault though, if you are a lady please blush with me *blushes*…
This is what I’m trying to say, we’ve got enough at the moment to have enough for the next moment and we don’t realize that we actually have enough but we always crave for more which automatically trashes away the enough that we already have. Don’t get it twisted, in simple sentence I mean we don’t always have to crave for enough of more when we have enough to open doors for more. What you think is not enough is just enough to get some more, at the end of the day the cravings we have makes us misuse what we already have and it’s a non-stop craving, you never get satisfied. It’s not like what we think is going to be enough is ever going to be enough, it just goes right on and on.
So I learnt something, everyone wanted me but I did not get to satisfy them enough and I also wanted them but they did not also satisfy me enough, they probably had their ‘babes’, I probably had mine *I don’t have a longer throat now* but it was just a feeling we all wanted to fulfill and this feeling made most of them loose what they had and made me loose mine too ‘so 50/50 God no vex’ *in British accent* lol… feelings don’t germinate nothing, they come and go, they flirt with you like prostitutes, they aint faithful to you anyways… so I turned back at the mirror and I’m like, please call Snow white for all I care I could give you a mic you know…
So the truth is nothing ever seems enough outside God! The moment you begin to feel like it’s not enough, you have probably walked out of the throne room. I mean Elijah used water to get the fire ‘that guy is a stunt man, men’… but seriously that seem to me to be nothing close to enough to make a fire! I mean that’s ludicrous water and fire *who does that*, but you see when we submit to God there’s an exchange. When you begin to see things as not being enough you forget the One who is enough “God”… don’t leave substance and chase shadows.
I know sometimes we can be anxious for so many things especially me *cleans sweat*, but anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its troubles but it empties today of its strength to handle ‘the tomorrow’. It doesn’t make you escape the evil, it makes you unfit to overcome it when it comes ‘offenses shall come’ worrying is like a rocking chair, it will give you something to do, but will never get you anywhere, so what’s the point?
Yoke up with God, think of your relationship with God as pizza with everything on it that’s when you can always really have a sense of fulfillment of having enough (Tomi). When you surrender to Him everything surrenders to you. Enjoy the ‘maximum of God’.
I was supposed to have written this two days back, I was a little below the weather and then the Holy Spirit was like, this was the conversation:
“It doesn’t work for me, you got to write this”
Me: hey I need my body to be alright to write
“Don’t give me that rhyme I just need your spirit your body will automatically yield”
So this is it, I also need you to comment and contribute that way I can delve into the arsenals of greatness that is inside of you…*pulls keg ready for tapping*…lol
Love you always! *smile*
Name: Akinola Oluwatomisin
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